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 JERYL S. Cedar Pole Vault. Instagram
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 Yeah these few days have been really emotional for me... And I really hate this. I mean, all we've done these days is quarrel. and I really dont understand why. The worst thing is that whenever I need you the most, you're always not there. Or busy being pissed at me or emoing. Even a brother who isn't as close to me as you are, is always there for me. And then you start blaming me for everything. You have no idea how much it hurts right? Just because you're more direct than me. You always tell me whatever I do hurts you, but you never ever wondered why I never said such stuff do you? I don't wanna hurt people. But you have no idea how many words you said made me wince... I really don't know whether I should hold on or just give up. Giving up will definitely bring lesser hurt but if I don't hold on, I would always have the regret of knowing what could have been. I know you love her, which is why I don't wanna get in the way of you and her everytime. And I suppose that's my fault. Everytime I get closer to someone, there will always be quarrels and then I'll start pulling away. Maybe the reason why I hardly have any real and true friends. Hmmmm~ But how could I when the first friend I made in primary school betrayed me? and following events that came... I don't even wanna think about it. But I guess not one person really knows the real me. Not even my best friend now... I'm starting to doubt I even know myself. But YOU definitely do not know me. And I really doubt you will. but I suppose I gave you the ability to be able to either make my day or just pull me down... Some quote I found on tumblr: "We aren't the girls who get 42 'likes' on our Facebook pictures, we aren't the girls that act dumb to get the guys, or that wear shorts with our asses hanging out. We care more about music than popularity. We are the girls who have laughing fits without worrying if are faces look weird, we are the girls who genuinely care about how you are, we are the girls who don't make a big deal of what you said 2 years ago, we're the girls who care more about being nice than who thinks that we're 'hot', we are the girls who can be quiet and often overlooked, but I guarantee we are the girls you'd rather be with." Labels: Emotions |