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Recently I've been seriously hooked on X Factor USA. Its super awesome!
I mean it is super awesome and trust me, it will really really CHANGE YOUR LIVES! HAHA and anyway, striaght after Os, I'm gonna get some soft pastel hair chalk and colour my hair(: I only dare to do so coz the colour is temporary(:There are a few that I really love.
Carly Rose, Beatrice Miller, Janel Garcia, Emblem 3, Fifth Harmony and Lyric 145.
Here are some shots which I really really like~!
Well, Os are gonna be over in about a week. Zzz I think its really stupid that they put the MCQs SOOOO FAR AWAY! Haixz... I'm gonna be having some MCQ crash course by my tutor this Monday. I can't wait for this week to be OVER! and after that, I'm free!!! And in 2 weeks, I'm gonna be resourcing Superteens. CAN'T WAIT!!!! Those of you who have never joined, GET YOUR ASSES IN NOW!
In the meantime, here's some awesome music to pass the time(:
okay anyway this post ain't gonna be much. More of the songs I'm getting really addicted to(: Prelims these few weeks. So tiring sighhh... Oh wells. Os only in 60+ days T.T Oh wells. Labels: Vid  I won't post some emo post today.
So I'm gonna be a happy girl heehee. Okay I sound crazy but yeah. I'm gonna be positive.
But before the post, I just wanna quote Alex. Some people really have gotta learn how to spell graciousness, respect and consideration. #likeseriously
AND I really can't stand people who pull you down just so their chances of getting accepted into a JC via DSA would get higher. B**** MAX! I mean, They told you to contact me for a meetup coz I was in camp but you jollywell didn't tell me and instead told another girl. Not like the other girl is any much better. BOTH of you didn't tell me until you guys got accepted! I mean, WTH?! You guys knew I wanted to get into VJC and you guys didn't tell me on purpose. Some friends you are. And now my chances are so slim... Nice, just nice...
Okay whatever.. HAPPY TIME(:
Oh wells. Don't care... heehee, tomorrow there's gonna be another prize ceremony for sports day. And yeah, it's my turn. Got third for long jump.
OH sports day is on friday anyway, so we're going Toa Payoh stadium. And sadly, this is the VERY FIRST TIME that I won't be doing anything for sports day... I'm so sad ): haixz... oh wells.
 National day is coming up too! Can't wait ^^ Coz we're gonna get our class tee too... I mean our class tee is pretty cool and all... Not the best but pretty cool. Maybe its just me coz I'm not very close to the class but I have nothing to say bout that(: Good news? Theres a long break after the celebration(: and celebration will be oh-so-awesome(: But the bad news? Prelims is immediately after that.
GAHH!!! I'm so scared ): I really hope I prepared enough... I'm pretty alright for emath and chem now I would think... OR at least I'm confident enough for a B. But haixz... the rest... abit the stressed... ESPECIALLY HUMAN GEOGRAPHY!!! GAH! Haix~ Everyone has their weakness don't they? HAHA, oh wells. But I'm just gonna focus on pulling up my grades for now. Other things... as some people would know... can wait till after Os(:
And after Os I've already planned a whole lotta stuff to buy/do.
Here are some:
MAJOR SHOPPING SPREE! Holga Camera! Instax! Sentosa Outing! Superteen Outing! Become a Resource for LM (I'll do my best)! USS! Hair straightener! HEELS! Prom Dress! New plan w/ a new phone!......etc......
Heeeheee, I feel like I'm gonna be spending alot of money but who cares, this whole period of time I havent been shopping!!!! >:(
Okay I guess I gotta hit the books again... love you guys.
and OH! Here are some videos that I personally really like(:
84 DAYS TO Os!!! Labels: Emotions, Vid, Visuals How have you guys been? I've been going in an emotional roller coaster the past few days but I'm just really really glad that it's over now. Or well, pretty much. I finally found a proper study group heehee(: I'm so happy(: It's like almost every week I'll go out to study with em heehee. Though not all of us are sec 4s, it's pretty cool that while helping the younger ones with their work, I myself can revise at the same time heehee. Okay so they're Felicia, Ronald, Jonathan K. and sometimes Gabriel. Lalala~ really awesome study group(: okay maybe half the time fel and me start "fighting" and the others will just staf one side and laugh, it's pretty cool how we can study together hehee. So I'm blogging from school and I just had Chem Spa. Ms Yam says that we aren't allowed to say anything so I shall be a good girl and keep quiet about it heehee. Only 90 days to O's my friends. 90! This is so scary. And prelims is less than a month away! I'm still really scared. I have to cut my L1R5 by at least half or I'm screwed big time. Sighhh. Oh wells. I WILL!!!! I MUST!!! I CAN!!! Heehee, super teens has seriously made me More positive though I still have many moments where people around me affect Mu emotions and all. Haixz. Oh wells. Oh yeah something interesting happened yesterday! Coz it was math and me, Aarathi, Diana, Nabilah were discussing our answers and laughing why we got all different. Then mr tan asked us why we laughing so since they didn't answer so I just answered then mr tan continued staring. And I was like... Awkward. Then he said "Jeryl, can you see me anot ah?" And I think everyone got it already. Co as you know, my fringe always covers my right eye. Then he said "you like forever eye test like that sia!" And apparently Gladys said I was blushing damn badly. Idk, but I was trolled big time haha! But idc, it was funny^^ And Nabilah forced me to pin up my fringe after that ); I mean I felt really insecure about it but everyone said I looke better and fresher or something like that anyways. Herhee I can't believe I can actually blog so much from Gladys' phone but it's cool(: Kay gotta go(: Ttyl<3 Labels: Emotions  Worst thing in the world I swear... I mean, I've always wanted my life to be like a hollywood movie but this is too much seriously. I have no idea what to do. Haixz oh wells. Shall go according to my instincts then. Anyway, there 106 days left to Os. The rate the number of days is dropping is really scaring me. ARGHHH! Can someone just stop time now? ): This is getting really stressful... and my mum just found a white hair on me today. AHHHHHH!~I should just forget bout the problems I have besides studies first and focus on getting As then after Os come and solve all these problems. Haixz... I really didn't want things to turn out this way but it did so... what can I do? Oh wells~ Oh I just downloaded a whole lot of songs I've been meaning to download. WHEEEEE~ LOVE THEM! AND JEDWARD IS AWESOME! They're so hot! Alot of people think that I'm putting my name and Edward's together. LOLS! WRONG! HAHA, okay larh, not the point at the moment but well, I suppose this 106 days I better buck up...ASDFGHJKL~
xoxo
 Camp was DABOMB! Okay I might have had some doubts about it before but now, I LOVE IT TTM! I love my dear campers. And I think being a leader has been really enriching for me<3To be able to reach out to everyone was really awesome. And here, I really wasn't judged for who I am. And I loved it. I mean it's the total opposite of school. I really hope I can go back as a resource(: teehee~ I'm gonna work hard! I really remember every single part of camp <3 from the standing ovation right to the end where we had to hug and say goodbye ):  I must admit that those 5 days may not have always been happy moments but it was all worth it with you guys. I mean, okay I'll admit that I got annoyed alot when you guys don't listen and just go about complaining coz the leaders have a much harder job than you guys and we're not complaining. But in the end, I suppose you guys got to know us better and also started to listen to us more and I really appreciated that<3 Especially for COE. To be honest, I loved COE and talent time and guess what, talent time was my first time doing a solo and I swear I was freaking scared. Especially the freestyle. I've never done a freestyle my whole life! but the show needed to go on right? haha! But at least I overcomed my fears. Remember the 6-storey fall into the pool and the carwash? HAHA! I LOVED EVERY MOMENT OF THE CAMP<3 because of you guys. And Thank you Dr Ernest Wong. You allowed me to gain more self-esteem and you taught us so much more than just the academic areas in our life and I really love you for that! Oh and we might have already ended but you're still an important person in my life. I really hope I didn't affect you too much because that's not what I really wanted to do. I love you alot as a friend. And Alex wrote me a song. IT WAS BEAUTIFUL! It's gonna be in his next album so for the moment, you guys can go check out his website. http://www.alex-wang.com
xoxo, Jeryl
Labels: Emotions, letter, lyrics, response, Visuals  Yeah I should actually start listening to the people that actually care about me haha. I mean... I really don't know where all these... who knows what... are taking me to. Yes it's my life and I deserve to live it the way that I want to. No matter what I do, there will still be people that judge me... And yes I think alot, too much in fact. But still, I can't stop people from judging me so hell, you guys can go talk all you want about me but just know that you can't stop me.Well, like Alex said, I should thank you guys in fact. I don't exactly hate you, but your presence ain't much of an excitement to me(: but well, you made me go through all these shit but guess what, I came back stronger. And I've gained a whole lot of new experiences that might actually make me a better a person. And yes I think I'd rather suffer now than later in life. I mean, what's there for me to lose now? You guys may push me and knock me down as many times as you want but I'll never give up trying. I'll end up being a much better person than you are and well you... you can go to hell bitch.  They say be yourself but yet they still end up judging you. And when you're not yourself, they call you fake.. But guess what? This is life. You can't control what others say about you but you definitely can control what you want to achieve with your own life. Okay what am I saying? Sounds grammatically wrong but oh wells, point is, learn to know who you should trust and who you shouldn't. I learnt that the hard way. But I'm glad I went through all these shit now instead of later in life. And yes, BE YOURSELVES. It's tough, definitely, but still we need to learn how to do so. And well for me, I gotta learn how to not trust anyone too easily. I'm still really not sure who I am to be honest. But like Alex said, I really should chill and just relax a little haha. I think I think too much about EVERYTHING which is why I'm so tense. But honestly, I'm really sick of always being the one getting hurt. But yet again, I really don't want to hurt others and end up having one more enemy. I really don't know who I hurt, honestly... I suppose I hurt those that are the closest to me. But I just really don't know what I'm doing now at this point of time. What with hurt and all. But I hope after all these, I'll turn strong unlike those that just give up. Anyway, I just really wanna thank those people that really do genuinely care about me(: Okay I shall name some but if your name's not here, please don't get offended. I may have forgotten or something coz I'm writing this at 2 am!  Just in case, the order is in no particular order or whatsoever. I just basically write down whoever came into mind(: Gladys (for being there for me all these 4 years and putting up with my shit ass temper hehehe) Alex (for always listening and giving me advice whenever I really don't know what to do with my life. And for always motivating me!) Felicia (for always being such a funny junior. You pigshitt attitude always makes me relax so much more and thanks for being so honest with me everytime!) Duang (for being such an awesome brother and caring for me. I know I have such a bad temper and might sometimes annoy the hell outta you but I really do appreciate all that you've done for me.) Bryan (for being such a cute and funny bro listening to all my shit stories and for encouraging me all these while. Talking to you always calms me down haha.) Shintaro (for always listening and giving me a third persons view of my life! You may be so naggy but at least I know you really do care for me.)  Somehow I think that some people who don't know me, when they read this they may think I'm a fugging flirt or bitch or whatsoever but up to you to decide. I may know a lot of girls from school but I definitely am not close to em. Not to mention my CCA. I know I have haters and I know who some of them are. It's not like I don't know. But I just try to ignore them and live life as I want it. In tuition there are only 3 girls! Me, Gladys and Nuril... How many girl friends can I meet =.= Oh wells, whatever y'all wanna say, up to you coz I really don't give a fuck.Honestly, up till now, I really rather I be a loner than be someone like you. I'd rather feel safe knowing that I have friends that care for me and friends than I can trust. As compared to friends that I have to constantly be wary of. Are those even considered friends? You call yourselves friends but behind each other's back, you bitch about one another like mad. You guys should really go find out the meaning of friends... IN THE DICTIONARY and not the BITCH-IONARY. (okay I was just being lame but these kinda people really piss the fuck outta me)  Really can't stand you guys. You make everyone hate one person but what does that make you? Does it make you happier to see her trampled in the dirt? Does that make you of a higher calibre than her? Does that make you a better person? Some people give excuses saying that they have been hurt before which is why they hurt others. But so what if you've been hurt before? Does that give you the right to knock everyone else down? You know how it feels like to be at the bottom. So why do you want others to feel that? Just a tip, when you're at the bottom, though you'll feel hopeless and there's nothing much you can do, well, the only place you can go to is up. I just wanna leave you guys with a question. What kind of friends do you wanna have? Think about that. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stand a little taller, doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.
xoxo
Labels: Emotions, letter, lyrics, response, Visuals  Some people just cant get anymore obvious pfft. Oh wells. Everyone thinks I'm like talking about them or something... HELLO people I actually have a life, unlike you, and unless you have a guilty conscience, why should you care man? Seriously =.= pathetic bitches. Another thing, if y'all wanna bitch, say it in the person's face. You guys only know how to bitch behind someone's back. Like seriously, how pathetic is that? When she's not around, you say fuck about her that you never did dare to say in her face ever. So really, stop the pretense... Your acting is horrible. and yeah some of you are definitely gonna turn it around and just shoot me back, but just know that you guys are pathetic. If you wanna talk about me, say it in my face. I dare you. And honestly, i'll salute you if you do that coz for once, you won't actually be a two-faced bitch. Anyway, maths lessons in school are finally over. Phew. And we went to Watsons to get some daily stuff and for my camp next week. I honestly cant wait for this saturday haha! VERTICAL ROAD(: But I have to wear a dress (dont ask me why). Awww man... haixz. Oh wells. Went to eat lunch at the chicken rice stall with Alicia today. There were HELLALOT of SA peeps there luh... Especially those from the collab. Saw the emcee for the collab whose name I forgot, Samuel Koh, Shintaro, Juneous, Nien Ting, Shao Kai, Javier, not sure if there were any more haha. Oh wells.  Monday I went back for training. First time in who knows how long and gosh my muscles are aching like SHIT! Damn pain larh. This is how cui we become after not training.... I guess I better keep up a little bit of training. If not after Os who knows what will become of me. Oh gosh. Bad idea... HAHA okay, Motivation(:   Never letting anyone come too close to hurt me. xoxo Labels: Emotions, letter, response  Its getting really disheartening... With my results and all... I cant believe i focused so much on subject that im not good in and neglected those that im good in ); i mean... I did improve for those that i suck at but... My As dropped to Cs and Fs... But my Fs improved to Cs... But really, on the whole, its horrible as fuck. I cant stand all these anymore. Why are my results so horrible? ); okay i dont care... By prelim 2, I'm gonna have to cut my L1R5 by half so I have to start my mugging session like... NOW! Oh wells... Everyone tells me to forget bout the failure this time round and focus on the next prelim by studying my all now... But its still really demoralizing. Anyway, its the june holidays... i suppose im going back for a few trainings just in case... Bt im scared. I mean... I know everything. They think that I don't. Plus nobody has any respect for me over there. Its like im invisible. They think theyre all that but how much different are they? They still end up backstabbing on another... Oh wells. At least I still have dear Fel (; Oh next week I gotta go back to school on tuesday and wednesday for math lessons. Haixz... My math... I dont care.... I have so gotta pull those up by at least 6-7 grades... T.T *sobs* and I suppose my sciences too. Haixz. Okay anyway... Enough with subjects and results... Really dont feel like talking about them. So anyway, week 2 of june holidays I have some study camp. Called super teen by dr ernest wong. Oh wells. Its some motivational camp too... Haixz... Honestly, I dont really think it can help me much though ); oh wells.. Oka maybe it will for a certain period of time but other than that, Idk what else it can do. Haixz.... Oh wells.  Oh yeah i cant wait for 14th june!!!(; wheeee~ haha the class having some 12 hr prep for debate. I CANT WAITTTTT(; I dont mind sticking to our normal grp or changing(; It will be damn fun^^ heehee. Okay thats all for now... Gotta do my work... xoxo. Labels: Emotions I feel quite accomplished this weekend though.... I finished the SCGS EMath paper 1 and 2 and the CHS Emath paper 1 heehee... And they're supposed to be holiday homework but oh wells. Shall finish the integration by next week too... I don't want tmr to come anytime soon... Haixzzzz... It's the release of our prelim results ); awwww man. I think teachers are gonna be bringing in guns into the auditorium. Haixz.... Wait, it IS in the auditorium right? Okay idk... Haixzzzz.... And I really hate my life now... Why am I having so many conflicts with people during this period?! ARGH! I wanna shoot myself. I think I'm just gonna try my luck at DSA. Well obviously chances are low but it wouldn't hurt to try would it? Which means I would be going for some training. Heh.... Oh wells. Im just sort of reluctant to go back for training due to some reasons.... Haiz oh wells. And my results aren't that good as per say ); idk... Every morning when I walk into the school, the same wave of hesitation hits me... I really can't wait to get out of cedar honestly. I mean yes, cedar is an awesome school and all but there are some people that I really do not want to face anymore. Some people that I don't wanna continue pasting that smile on my face to act to... And having so many tests and papers.... It's really wearing me out that I have no idea what to do anymore. Wednesday and Thursday are gonna be the worst 2 days of the week. First 3 periods will be Chinese ); coz normal chinesE students need em. And as for HCL students, we're gonna have timed assignment for paper 1 and 2.... ARGH! kill me now. t(-.-t) FML. Oh wells. At least I think Thursday the class ( as in my English tuition class) is going out for movie before that. WHEEEEE~ oh and we have a debate to prepare for. Haixz... Whether animals have rights. Oh wells... It's a real brain wracking topic. Trust me. At this point of time, I'm really not sure whether I made the right choice. I cried a damn lot yesterday coz of you but I doubt you know. My eyes were hurting like hell and all you did was what, sleep? Wow. Anyway, shan't say anymore... I think I'd rather my haters not know bout anything.... Oh wells. Oh btw, I love absolute boyfriend heehee... The show on channel U(; it's A W E S O M E! Okay anyway that isn't really the point lols! I found out that for inclined pullups, I got 2nd for sec 4 level... Haixzzzz... Okay in JC imma do 50! Just saying. But at least I got 30/30(; gold^^ and all As haha.... Okay well, yeah. I shall end off with a quote for you guys... The right thing to do isn't always easy, and the easy thing to do isn't always right. |
